Today I trudged out to my prayer chair even though it was wet because of the rain the night before. I positioned my coffee, my bible, my journal and was ready for my devotions. I held my coffee in one hand my books on my lap and a pen handy so I could write my thoughts. Before long Lucy climbed up on my lap and tried to slip between my books and my body, making paw prints on me, my books and my bible. I adjusted all these things and finally gave up my coffee to hold my books and Lucy. It wasn't long before two cats joined Lucy and that meant that something had to go. Oh, how sweet they were, all trying to get my time and attention. I love each one of them including Daisy who lays at my feet groaning every so often. How could I decide who to get rid of? After all hadn't I come out there to be with God? I had even thanked God for these same lap invaders just a few minutes before they came. I tried to juggle everything, holding my bible up over their heads. I tried to write with my journal placed on their backs but they didn't hold still. My thoughts had been taken over by my precious friends. Finally I decided that my time with God was too valuble to spend it trying to fit him in so we adjusted things. My lap was off limits for the time being so Lucy found her place beside me. The cats grew tired of the constant maneuvering so they were content sitting on the table beside me. I again could focus on God and what he had for me today. I find myself so occupied with my surroundings, my problems, my hurts and conflicts that my lap isn't big enough for God. I sit, holding my pain, instead of setting it aside to let God come closer. While I try to concentrate on his truths other things crowd in, even good things. Lord, I clear my heart, life and lap to let you come and sit with me.
Over three years ago, I posted this, one of my first writings. From that day on, the Lord brought so many things to my mind that I would scrawl out and eventually post on my blog. But lately, it seems, I have to strain to even write a word. I have gone through "writers block" before but I have felt utterly dry in my spirit for the last few months. I have at times written three post a week but it is very hard to squeeze just one out a week as of late.
I love writing! I love telling what the Lord is doing in my life as well as others but I seemed to just run out of "me"! I have asked for forgiveness if I have been prideful or offensive in any way but found no relief. I have asked God why, when I had more "reads" than ever would He stop the flow of my words? Not only was I not able to write but my eyesight has declined and my ability to focus on what I am reading has diminished.
As I went to my journal today, I came across a scripture that I had written there. Phil 1:6.
Being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Jesus Christ. Phil 1:6
I rejoiced over His words to me today! No matter in what manner I will serve Him, He has promised to see me through. I don't know if it is writing this blog or maybe something else but He will be with me forever. Amen
Over three years ago, I posted this, one of my first writings. From that day on, the Lord brought so many things to my mind that I would scrawl out and eventually post on my blog. But lately, it seems, I have to strain to even write a word. I have gone through "writers block" before but I have felt utterly dry in my spirit for the last few months. I have at times written three post a week but it is very hard to squeeze just one out a week as of late.
I love writing! I love telling what the Lord is doing in my life as well as others but I seemed to just run out of "me"! I have asked for forgiveness if I have been prideful or offensive in any way but found no relief. I have asked God why, when I had more "reads" than ever would He stop the flow of my words? Not only was I not able to write but my eyesight has declined and my ability to focus on what I am reading has diminished.
As I went to my journal today, I came across a scripture that I had written there. Phil 1:6.
Being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Jesus Christ. Phil 1:6
I rejoiced over His words to me today! No matter in what manner I will serve Him, He has promised to see me through. I don't know if it is writing this blog or maybe something else but He will be with me forever. Amen
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