Charlie, my grand-dog, came to visit today, in fact I
“babysat” him for a little while. Charlie is only 5 months old
but his long legs dominate his body. His long nose is into
everything and his social skills surly need to be improved upon. He
keeps everyone in the house on their toes, from Daisy the alpha
female to Peppie the pint sized alpha male. He spends much of his time getting himself into trouble with the
other dogs. He's an expert at dancing and dodging as they, in no
uncertain terms, try to show him who's boss. Right now he sits at my
feet, whining and has given up for the moment. I feel his pain
because a few days ago I felt sorry for something I had said and I,
like Charlie, sat and whined.
But.... if she hadn't said this, I
wouldn't have said that. If I hadn't been tired because of my
husband's restless night or if.......! It went on and on, one excuse
after another. Finally, after all of the excuse making and whining, I
began to beat myself up because I once again had bungled it.
My mind went back to a question in one
of my bible studies. The question was something like this, “When
have you said the wrong thing and felt sorry afterward?” Feeling
rather self righteous, I couldn't think of the last time I had
“bungled” it. “Have I arrived, I wondered to myself?” Maybe
it's MY bible studying or maybe MY new journaling technique? Could
it be that I am a mature Christian and this bungling at life is over?
Had I moved from a baby bottle to solid food? Unfortunately pride
in ME had reared its ugly head! I am sure that the Lord was not
proud of me at that moment but, I'm sure He knew a time would come
when I would be humbled.
While my heart broke because of what
came from my mouth, I thought of how I should never think I have
arrived and especially that it was all because of MY doing. It is
only through Christ that I can walk through this life without making
a mess of it. It is only God who can cause me to mature as a
Christian. If not for the Lord I'm just a gangly pup with long legs
and a long snout getting myself into all sorts of trouble. “Don't
worry, Charlie, you'll grow up someday!” And so will I with God's
help!
I
had to feed you with milk, not with solid food, because you weren’t
ready for anything stronger. And you still aren’t ready,
for
you are still controlled by your sinful nature.
1 Corinthians 3:1-2